Bogatyr wrote:
How the hell do you get good at this game? Am I missing something?
Are you familiar with the phrase, "A fight is decided before you step into the ring." Judging from your descriptions, I think you're coming into these situations already accepting that things are gonna go down a certain way, and it's like a self-fulfilling prophesy--you die because you were preparing to. You're coming into these encounters already putting a lot of pressure on yourself and that is suffocating your mind from making good decisions.
You need to trust yourself--you've learned the best practices of various kits, maps, and vehicles over the years, you understand the game mechanics. Ditch the negative expectations and consult with the facts of the situations you find yourself in. Sometimes the only choices in a given PR encounter are real shitty ones, and so you have to calculate the risk and execute, and it often does not end pretty. That's also the game sometime, everyone has their slump week. Any outcome is ok, and failure is good when it is constructive.